LOVE Leaves a Memory

"Death brings a heartache that no one can heal... but love,

                LOVE leaves a memory no one can steal."

I heard this quote today, and I immediately thought of you and Mommy. My heart ACHES... and surely no one can heal it... but I am so thankful of the LOVE that we shared and the memories that I have. I just truly and deeply wish we were able to make more... wish we had the time to make more... wish I could remember ALL of our time together - every minute - EVERY SECOND. It hurts so bad to think of all that I can't remember. When we lost Mommy, James, we had each other, to help remember... now, how do I remember it ALL? I try so hard, to remember any and everything...To remember when we were little... the games we played, the times we argued, how we got on each others nerves, the walks we took, the talks we had, the laughs, the holidays, the birthdays, the dreams we dreamt, the LOVE...

You are my little-BIG... you always will be. I miss you babe... life is not the same without you towering over me (so protective), yet always looking up to me. 

So much of what I've accomplished, and the woman I am, I owe to you... Mommy for raising me - and you, Brother, for always looking up to me. You pushed me to do better and to be better - and I'm not sure if you really knew that. I hope you did.

My last words to my Brother... "Goodnight. I love you."
(I hope I dream of you tonight...)