Sunday, September 5, 2010

This is a picture of my brother, James Wickliffe, and his daughter, Sonya, which was taken 3 days ago - 2 days before he died.

September 4th, 2010 was the day I (and my siblings) lost my brother, his wife lost her husband, his daughter lost her father, his father lost his son, and the world lost a wonderful human being with a loving heart.Yesterday, I stood and watched helplessly as the doctors and nurses tried to restart my brother's heart. I stood there holding his foot (as it was all I could get to and I wanted him to know I was there) as they performed CPR and administered meds... Then the doctor said there was nothing more they could do. I begged them not to stop, please God, DO something. Somebody DO something...God please. I laid my head on your chest and I held you and I cried and I held you and I prayed your heart would beat and I would hear it and I held you and i cried, i cried as if my tears would bring you back to life - and I held you in my arms. My baby brother. I was there holding you, long after all the nurses and doctors left...until they tore me away. Since the day you were born, James, you have been and will always be my baby. My heart is shattered. First Mommy (39yrs old) and now you (21yrs old)... I barely survived losing HER... But you needed me then, you said we could make it cause we had each other. I had to be there for you and I loved being there for you. Now what do I do... 

I am not exactly sure how blogs work, but I want my brother's memory to live on. So here I am. 
My brother's name is James Wickliffe. He was only 21. He and his wife, my sister (in-law) Alexandra just had a baby girl a few months ago. They named her Sonya Marie in loving memory of our Mother who died almost exactly 9 years ago. I love my brother very much and am struggling to keep it together right now. I keep thinking this cannot possibly be real... not my baby brother. I will write more soon... Feel free to share your loving memories of James as well. 
Thank you.

 

4 comments:

  1. May the good Lord keep you and your family through this tough time! My family and I prayer is with you...

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  2. wow james this really sucks that ur gone i remember seein u in the hallways at clark smiling and havin a good old time and now ur gone..i remember cheerin for u at the basketball games since i was a cheerleader and jus havin fun talkin to each other every once in a while...i remember wen u asked me to prom and we were supposed to go but then ur wife came along and to told u its best if u go with her bcuz it was the right thing to do but imma miss and always remember u...u will never be forgotten!!

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  3. Chambre, I apologize. I am just seeing your post, today. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for sharing your memories of James. Do so - anytime. Thank you again.

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